Tuesday, January 5, 2010

And then there were 2......2 more sick C's that is!

Well this morning I feel like shit. That is putting it mildly. Not the under the weather type of feeling shitty, but the guilt I am feeling because I am at work here sitting on my ass at my desk and making phone calls and Mommy T is at home taking care of 2 more sick C's and a 7 month old and a C that homeschools and just got over being sick. Didn't even mention yet that she is feeling shitty herself, the sick kind of shitty.  If I were a good husband I would just leave work and go home and help her and give her a breather for the day. I am not sure if it count's as being a good dad and husband when I go out on the couch in the middle of the night so all of the kids can be in our bed and she can watch over them. Did I do her a favor or abandon her? Not sure. We always need the money and I really can't afford to leave but I know she is going to have a stressful day. I am tearful sitting here typing this because T is everything I am not. There is no way I could do all that she does and not want to punch myself in the face over and over and then a little more. When T and I told her family we were getting married they couldn't believe it, because she always told them she would never get married, and then they always laughed and said she never wanted kids and she agreed. Now T has turned into the greatest wife ever, and she is even a better mom. So I am going to stress all day about how the kids are feeling and how T is handling everything. I just don't want her to be stressed, I know she can handle everything that is thrown at her, but I still worry about my wife.  Maybe, just maybe the bugs will be the quick little bugs and then go away and we can have our crazy, loud, toy filled, romper room house that we are used to having. I love you babe and the C's too and I hope you all have a great day and feel better.



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