Tuesday, January 25, 2011

I'd Rather be Lucky than Good

Whats that saying "I'd rather be lucky than good!" 

I need some luck.  I need a lot of luck right now.  I want to say that I deserve something good to happen to me but I do a lot of bad and ugly stuff so I am now thinking that karma is either going to work out for me in a good way or a bad way.

Be happy with what you have.  No!  I want something new.  Something different.

But, I have this feeling in my gut, yes the same feeling that has been making me sick now for 2 day that I am not going to get what I am asking for.

I know how much of a jerk and a-hole I am and I remember that day when T told me that a doctor wanted to do surgery on C1's neck.  I got so mad that I cursed God and started to doubt him and I felt like he was getting back at me...Well now my stomach is in knots and I feel like I am going to screw myself. 

It is never, NEVER this easy. There is no way I could be this lucky.  I used up all my luck in finding the best woman in the world to marry me and have kids with me and stay with me for this long.

Man, I just need something good to happen. 

Like a team that get the big win in the final seconds of a game.....

I would rather be lucky than good.  I just want to be lucky.

I am scared of letting down my team. (T and the 4 C's)  I mean I am so nervous and anxious at this point...I just don't want to let them down.

Most of all, T and the 4 C's...the ones who have stuck by me during the times of em acting like a jerk and yelling and being mean and hurting more than helping...they deserve for me to be more lucky than good.




bev120 January 25, 2011 at 8:54 PM   Reply to

Some say that we make our own luck.

Penny January 27, 2011 at 7:43 AM   Reply to

It sounds like you couldn't let them down even if you tried.

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