This is my first time doing Mama Kats Writer's Workshop but the prompt DRUNK just seemed to be a good one for me to start with.
Coming up in February it will be 3 years since I have quit drinking. Wow 3 years. Yeah. I feel good about not drinking. I used to drink and get drunk a lot. And when I say a lot, man I mean a lot. Never really got into the reasons why I drank so much except the sorry excuses like work, stress, relaxing and other things like that. Never thought of it being a problem or me being an alcoholic while I was doing it, but isn't that the way it goes?
A lot of things happened while I was doing all of this drinking. T and I were fighting all the time. I had no patience (still don't but...) Was nasty to T, nasty to the kids, I was a big A-hole. I was doing anybody any good. Not T, not the kids, not myself. Getting home at 9 pm on a weekday and drinking till I go to bed. Every day. Drinking on the weekends from afternoon on. Why? Just felt like it.
I tried cutting back to the weekends. Hell that just meant I drank more on the weekends and then it slipped back into the weekdays. Couldn't do it. It was at the point where the C's associated drinking with me. They saw beer commercials and would say to me "That's what you drink daddy" Enough was enough. Too much fighting with T, she wasn't happy with me and I wasn't happy with me. Our home was a mess. The only way to fix it was to quit. So I did.
I quit cold turkey. It was awesome. It has been awesome. No more fighting with T, no more being drunk or drinking all the time. No more wondering if I may have missed something the C's said to me. No more falling asleep early while T is awake in bed. (Well not from drinking).
So as the 3 year mark nears I do have a sort of huge reminder that I once drank too much....A beer belly. I know many of you might think I resemble Matthew Mcconaughey but I do have a beer belly.
So to people out there that spend their time being drunk or for that matter even drinking all the time, I just say to you..."WHY?" You don't need to. I'm not even talking about the health part of it. If you have kids, do you want your kids seeing you like that all the time and then the risk of your kids drinking at an early age. Not worth it.
I am also torn about something right now on this topic. I have a close friend who I would do anything for, cause I know he would do the same. I think he may have a drinking problem and I think it may be affecting his home life. I love this dude. (Easy people, don't go there) I want to say something to him but I don't know if I am suppose to know anything? That would create a problem for his wife who is also a great best friend. I don't want to stick my nose (very large nose) into someone else's business. I have done that recently and it has not worked out well. (Example - I will never be a marriage counselor. I'm 0-2) This guy has been married a long time and I don't want him to look back and say "If I only stopped sooner" I don't know. I guess I only say that cause I was there.
Drunk. For me it means wasted time, wasted chances and wasted memories.
Go check out Mama's Losin' It! She is funny. Maybe next time I do this I can be my normal funny, crazy self. Until then just keep those thoughts of me being Matthew Mcconaughey alive.
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